I found her out in a reflection,
one day when I decided to die.
I was saying goodbye to me-
and saw her instead.
Oh how the sadness of her smile,
proclaimed my hope in the folds of her lips.
How they showed subtle signs
of absolution.
And Oh, how I took her to me...
Where we would wrap ourselves
all up in each other to sleep-
or just breathe.
Suffering this world as one.

And all throughout this clenching romance of the mind,
I hid from her the secret.
That all I wanted out of life-
was death.
Because I knew
that if I opened myself up too wide,
if I let her cradle my soul for too long...
She would know the only truth-
and cringe in disgust.
And so I clouded over-
her mind and her mighty wings,
with smoky drugs.
And I kept her down-
with multi colored pills,
that numbed everything...