we didn't know it was going to hurt so bad. hundreds of us sat in a room together, seeing the speakers mouth move but we were so broken inside to hear what they were saying...
the room was silent all i could hear was the girl to the far left having a panick attack and crying. her friend tried to calm her down but she ended up running out of the room. the feeling seemed to go on for days even though we were only there for 60 minutes... i tried so hard not to cry. i sang in my head, i distracted myself, but nothing worked. the feeling of the room made you cry even if you didn't know what was going on.

i remember the silence.

i remember the girl having a panick attack.

i remember the person behind me crying quietly.

i remember wiping my tears on my jacket while hearing my heart pound fastly.

i have never felt so much hurt, from so much people like that in my entire life. if i ever have to go through that again.... im not going to make it.



© Miele Ann