I've been feeling strange, I feel like I have changed, I don't love like I used to. I'm broken down and tired of living life on a merry go round and I feel scared, I fear my mind's at war yet I can't find the fighter.

My broken heart's a burden so tired of these words "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." That don't ever have truth in 'em.

See I'm too broke for saving, I'm too far to heal, hurt too many times for naming, broken down and drained I just need You Lord to come wipe all of the pain, save me from this world, 'cause Lord I'm not breathing, I need love. Won't you give a care, and just tell me, am I gettin' through to you?
I wanna know, are you even listening, is my message gettin' through?

Wish I could see through, see deep into your so called plan to prosper me and know what you're planning for me now and if I were to need it, I need some kind of sign. Let me know 'cause I can't read your mind. Are you really planning on something for my life or am I in this on my own? I need some clue from you, let me know, God, do you feel me, do you read me?

Tell me 'cause I can't feel you. You play it so cool, You won't let nothin' show through, You won't show what you're planning, You like keepin' me here in the dark and I can't see through into your best interested for me.

Dear God let me in, on this mystery 'cause I just can't stay in this guessing game and please don't keep me hanging on the line. I need one shot whiskey two shots of pain relief and a dash of some memory. I mean with life's lemons I've made enough lemonades, and it drained all my energy

I thought that your plans for my life was magnificent, I remember being told that your love for me is unmatched and that your plans are not to harm me but to prosper, why I don't see it happening. I'm staring at a kid in the mirror and all I do is wonder if he's proud of me, broken promises made me this way I swear I wasn't always numb and indifferent but what could I tip you, or what can anyone give in exchange for their better days?

Heaven knows I'm a mess but I hope there's still some time to rewrite my life and I hope that it's with you when I say "For what shall it profit a writer, if his characters shall lose their own soul?" I mean would I rather be rich in gold or be rich in faith.

Dear God, if you're listenin' now I need you do a thing for me. You see my better days are unjust, are done up and walked out, so many red flags and darkness that you would think I was never cut out for anything greater, half baked love I'm infatuated, Your best interest for me and the best plan to prosper me doesn't really show. I need you bring it pass to life.

I know that I'm guilty in sin probably not priority but dear God, if you're listenin' now I'm down here, dyin', beggin', cryin' it's getting late, sunrise is colorless You can tell the days when I'm over it. You said my days are numbered. God oughta please listen to my cry, just bring me closer to better and brighter days, I want it all if it's really for me.

I been reminiscing who I wanted to be before, now that soul is missing, lost it long ago, I hope what you're planning its better not bitter 'cause I need my life with a lil less pressure. I pray You walk in my life and open up my eyes. I know love is blind but please make me see colors so divin so I can be floating over water, 'cause I'm scared of going under

Make an covenant with me "no more thunder" pull me from the dust of my mind, and leave my peace where my thoughts can't get 'em 'cause I'm starting to think that I can't do anything godly. My heart's wounded and scarred from past times please do lift me up so I couldn't run

I know I was destiny to be something better than half the man I know I am, I'm making you this promise right now if you can do this one thing for me, I'll be the man that you want, I'll be the man that you need. Church every Sunday, prayers every day night long. When the silence isn't quiet and it feels like it's getting hard to breathe and I feel like dying, we'll take the world to its feet and through you, I'm gonna walk it out and move mountains and I'll rise up high like the day, I'll rise up unafraid like the waves in spite of the ache