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feb 3....day 3....19 more days to go...

😃I will never lose my smile because life was my tutor
And its experience is bringing the best from the worst.😃


😇I AM SPECIAL AND INORDER TO BE SPECIAL IT WAS REQUIRED I SHOULD GO THROUGH HELL🌝

A poet's tribute to fear who crushed him….🌝🌝🌝💫



I have senses
And i am good at them
Even my each breath
I am aware of its senations.
So it was easy for me to be
Gripped in fear
With no reasons.
It affected me
Till i discovered
How this unwelcomed guest
Came into me……💫💫💫



AFTER TWO YEARS…..💫💫

We came back from our favourite city, due to health reasons, HELL was in its way.
Suddenly our family had financial crisis additionally my mother was carrying my younger brother…

When we came back we were not welcomed as previously, my mother had tough time to deal
With her two little ones , additionally she was also mentally harassed, by one of my aunt. Later i heard she used to cry a lot….but never i have seen her complaining, this tough times she went through..

MAYBE THE RAGE OF ANGER I HAVE NOW THAT IS UNCONTROLLABLE AT SOME TIMES
MAY BE A RESULT OF UNEXPRESSED PROTEST OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO HARASSED MY MOTHER DURING MY CHILDHOOD..
IF I LOST MY ANGER I AM JUST TURN THE WORLD UPSIDE DOWN…
NO IAM LEARNING TO CHANNEL MY ANGER IN A PROPER WAY..
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE A CHILD. HE SEES EVERYTHING, HE PERCEIVE HOW IT IS COMMUNICATED ,,AND ITS EASY TO GRIP EVIL HABITS

Sudden depraival of care attention affected me, i lost my jovial nature….
I was gripped in fear….and it will be so for next twenty years,......

APPLYING FIRST PRINCIPLE OF LIFE…
I am taking u to ..the time when i was in my mothers womb

My mother ,when she was carrying me in her 7 month of pregnancy , she wished to come back to her native place...since i was her first child, everyone was greatly alarmed, and they too pressurised her to come back…

But my father as stubborn in love never let her go back, and he promised his wife , will
Be brought back safely...he did it…

But my mother was affected with fear...by all pressurisation...and it affected her child…
In its intense….
By staying alone in a flat..in a big city , with limited persons to chat with

Back to the story...

THIS FEAR WHICH I INHERITED WAS AWAKENED WHEN I WAS DENIED OF LOVE, CARE AND ATTENTION.

HOW IT AFFECTED ME
1) STAMMERING FOR 5 YEARS
2) LEARNING DIFFICULTIES FOR OVER 10 YEARS
3) LOW SELF ESTEEM FOR TWENTY YEARS
4) UNABLE ENJOY LIFE OVER TWENTY YEARS

IT WAS SHORT DESCRIPTION HOW I WAS AFFECTED WHEN LOVE WAS DENIED…

I can't say my mother or family denied me , but the hell journey i started was shattering me to my
Single cells….

It was difficult for me to laugh ….heartily…

But always in me remained a little hope , i will be cured one day…
Even Though it took 20 years , i was trained in the ground of life experiments….


Life experiments if perceived rightly it s the greatest lesson one can learn…..
TOMORROW I WILL SPEAK OF GUILT I WAS DRAINED OF MY ENERGY
IN MY LIFE








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