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"Processing"
I'm just not feeling it right now
So can I have some time to process?
I have feelings to work through too
And some things to try and express
It's not what started the whole situation
It's not really over what was said
What it all boils back down to is how
You put your hands on me instead
What you think gives you the right
To be able to sling me around?
Or how you feel the urge
To just slap me in the mouth
I want you to sit and take a moment
Just reverse the roles
Someone always hoovering over you
And tries to have complete control
Because you may say something wrong
Or he thinks it's directed at him
The consequences it could have or
The repercussions it might bring
Someone who's obviously bigger than you
Maybe they were having a bad day
This is supposed to be the one YOU LOVE
Now how do you feel that you've been betrayed
Please take a moment, just a moment
To think how you would feel
How if you always felt you didn't matter
And wished your life could end for real
Cause you think you have a right
When you have NO RIGHT at all
To break someone down with harsh words
And make them feel so small
Promises made and things discussed
You never followed through
All you cared about was gambling
And only YOU not getting screwed
There's been even times you bragged
How you slapped this girl or that girl down
How you always tried to make yourself out
To look like the biggest bad around
You wanna charm and impress me?
Stop making excuses and go get a job
Stop acting like you high almighty
And stop being a snob
You a grown fucking man
You should start acting like one
Cause the drama you be pulling
Only makes me wanna be DONE
I don't play the same games you play
Nor am I gonna start now
Cause this is behavior I don't put up with
Nor will I allow
You were ever so right on one aspect
That it won't happen again
I refuse to let you use me
Or put me thru that kind of emotional pain
Act like you better than everyone else
Cause now you not on "those drugs"
Nigga, jail forced you to quit
Or you'd STILL be in the same place you was
So what, now you all better
You think you got our relationship figured out?
You better stop and rethink that scenario
Cause you gonna need a better route
Under YOUR pretty lil perfect rug
You can't just sweep it all away
Expect everything to be forgiven
Within the period of a couple days
I'm just not feeling it right now
So can I have some time to process?
I have feelings to work through too
You not the only one with shit to express
© De Ona Marie Charamut
22Aug23
So can I have some time to process?
I have feelings to work through too
And some things to try and express
It's not what started the whole situation
It's not really over what was said
What it all boils back down to is how
You put your hands on me instead
What you think gives you the right
To be able to sling me around?
Or how you feel the urge
To just slap me in the mouth
I want you to sit and take a moment
Just reverse the roles
Someone always hoovering over you
And tries to have complete control
Because you may say something wrong
Or he thinks it's directed at him
The consequences it could have or
The repercussions it might bring
Someone who's obviously bigger than you
Maybe they were having a bad day
This is supposed to be the one YOU LOVE
Now how do you feel that you've been betrayed
Please take a moment, just a moment
To think how you would feel
How if you always felt you didn't matter
And wished your life could end for real
Cause you think you have a right
When you have NO RIGHT at all
To break someone down with harsh words
And make them feel so small
Promises made and things discussed
You never followed through
All you cared about was gambling
And only YOU not getting screwed
There's been even times you bragged
How you slapped this girl or that girl down
How you always tried to make yourself out
To look like the biggest bad around
You wanna charm and impress me?
Stop making excuses and go get a job
Stop acting like you high almighty
And stop being a snob
You a grown fucking man
You should start acting like one
Cause the drama you be pulling
Only makes me wanna be DONE
I don't play the same games you play
Nor am I gonna start now
Cause this is behavior I don't put up with
Nor will I allow
You were ever so right on one aspect
That it won't happen again
I refuse to let you use me
Or put me thru that kind of emotional pain
Act like you better than everyone else
Cause now you not on "those drugs"
Nigga, jail forced you to quit
Or you'd STILL be in the same place you was
So what, now you all better
You think you got our relationship figured out?
You better stop and rethink that scenario
Cause you gonna need a better route
Under YOUR pretty lil perfect rug
You can't just sweep it all away
Expect everything to be forgiven
Within the period of a couple days
I'm just not feeling it right now
So can I have some time to process?
I have feelings to work through too
You not the only one with shit to express
© De Ona Marie Charamut
22Aug23
