I have watched on in utter disbelief as every dream I've ever hoped in has evaporated into the air and the atmosphere before my eyes. it's like I can't get to where I desire and aspired to be at present. I always remain hopeful but it seems I can't do right from wrong. I'm reckless and have always been, but I'm exhausted now and plus I'm getting drunk again. it's just I have no family, no next of kin, not no one to guide me out of the black and get me home again. I can sing pretty songs and I have melodic waves rushing through my...