Fragrances and oils,
With roots infused.
Candles,
Incantations
Pheromones
Sigils
Declarations
Motes it be
That never came to be.

Hurts to admit,
I am a failed witch.
Promises
That never came to pass.

Melted wax,
Yellow papers
weathered from time and moisture.
Stored herbs
Prepared bottles
standing there collecting dust
In the end I never got my wish.

It was necessary
I kept telling myself.
I would never attain a life partner otherwise.

The idea of a willing partner
Walking life alongside me
Was a self comforting myth.
A summit I would never reach.
A sadistic lie
A bittersweet hope.

I accepted that I had to steal what I wanted.
Because it was common knowledge
It would never come to me
out of its own free will.

I had to resort to smoky illusions
To blindfold my desire
Into believing
I was its one and only.
Because I knew that I want
Would never want me back.

I stand here a fool
A decade of solitude and treason.
I didn't get the prize
But I got the debt and punishment.
I wanted to steal
Others stole from me
I wanted to lie
I was lied to.

Awful, pitiful sorceress.
A decade of loneliness.

Broke divine commandments
For the chance to hear 'I love you'

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