I wanna talk to him,
I wanna hug him freely.
But I know I can't,
I know that I can't control my feelings when around him.
I know I become overjoyed when talking to him.

Is this love?
or infatuation?
Where I chose to think of him, while he's thinking of someone else, we made it clear.

Seen, Mute, Block
That was how our chat, our conversation went. Downhill.

I felt myself yearning for him,
Yearning for me to touch him- hug him,
Leaning on his shoulders - as I pour out my feelings.

At the same time, I felt horrible,
How irrseponsible of me to let my emotions control me,
To let myself happy once again,
To let myself enjoy the life that I have.

Is this my punishment?
But for what?
Is this really a way to tell me that he's the wrong person, that he's not the one?
Is this really love? Or am I just scared to let go?...