Despite the light creeping in

I am blind as I begin

To pick up a pen to etch it in

Just a kid looking in

At the insides of my own head

What do I know, where have I been?

Too far from home, counting sins

Wish I could trade ‘em for Benjamins

Then again can't buy happiness

It happens to some, others chase it

Captain of my storms when I blaze it

Mastered the chaos; made it a maze

More lost than before

Not much more I can take

Before I break I breath and say

Thank God for the day, a blank page

Good place to lay my crazy down

Sorry for what it smudges out

All my intentions on the ground

Lost my way trying to puzzle it out

Please take alternative routes

Insight I scribble out quickly

Before I lose sight swiftly

These storms morph and follow me

Is it Satan or Jesus knocking?

I keep glock cocked; doors locked

Paranoia in my bloods mud

Scream bloody Mary when the reaper comes

Till then silence cause I'm creeping up

Reaching for familia to fill my cup

Full of love the rest will dry you up

Leave you begging blind and dumb

Mine held whiskey way too much

These days it's water; mommas love

Never thought she'd be around growing up

Thank God for the day, a blank page

Good place to lay my crazy down

Sorry for what it smudges out

All my intentions on the ground

Lost my way trying to puzzle it out

Please take alternative routes

I'm not an easy place to lay trust in

Covered in rust, troubled and done in

That’s just the cover so judge it and

You’ll miss the history between

It's fragile pages, thinned out from

Thumbing through all I've been through

It won't be wasted, this story's not done

I'm the one to blame for what gets jotted

Down, burned out, left rotting in the sun

Thank God for the day, a blank page

Good place to lay my crazy down

Sorry for what it smudges out

All my intentions on the ground

Lost my way trying to puzzle it out

Please take alternative routes