my life was nearly perfect,
nearly a dream that was within my dreams!
i tried to stay strong, only i couldn't hang in there!
I tried to fix my mistakes, only i don't have enough effort to do so!

please don't hate me for this,
because it's the only answer that has responded my call.

i am lonely and not happy!
i am angry and confused, i juss cannot wait to face another disappointment.
i am big and grown about to get some some grey!
i haven't yet lived at least 2% of my life.

mom!
i always wanted to keep you happy, no matter how impossible it seemed i never ler you down!
i am confident that you were or maybe you still proud of me, i hope every smile i brought to your face might last forever!
actually this note is for you to read and keep to your heart.

this is for Bone.
you are my brother, and i love you more than everything, i always respected you, you are a soldier, but you are the primary reason why i am ending my journey right now.
lately we've been fighting, and i never wished for that to happen.

fighting with you gives me sleepless nights, i never thought me and you we'd ever be enemies.
i promised you a house, i wanted to live with you, run my businesses...