I am Lost in this colorful world

Locked in my room ,full of darkness
Can't express my pain,
Full of uncertainty and doubt about myself

Living like a lifeless, no clue
What to do with myself

Tired of being alive ,
In this world of pain and struggles

Tears dropping
Heart wrenching
Soul giving up

Not able to understand myself
Feeling hollow from inside.

Wanted to be accepted by the society,
Fighting for my survival
Wanting to be valued
Struggling for it

Not able to decide which way I am going,
Not able to thing what am I doing

Someone is controlling me
Don't know who is he
Trying to be free

Not able to realise my responsibilities
Giving my responsibilities to others
Always dependent on someone
Someone whom I trust blindly

Being conquerored by the Biggest enemies
Enemies of my life
Lust,...