Just like that I fell back into your trap. This time you think it's a wrap. You think you have gotten me right where you want me. You have yet to see, just what I can be.
It's truly up to you, what side you witness. I have done my best at forgiveness. There are just some things I can not forget. I have my heart set.
I see my future with my boys. Playing and laughing with all their toys. My life is peaceful without you around. Anger doesn't make a sound. Without you my mind can rest. My soul can finally be at its best. One day soon you'll see what you created. This was all fated. This is how it all ends. Maybe one day we can make amends. For now however I will play my roll. One day soon you'll pay the toll. I have spent 9 years trying. Now I'm done dieing. You blame me for all of it, that's ok I'm used to it. Soon you see what this did to me. a woman deprived of emotion. 9 years in motion. 9 years of support, all for me to be hurt. Never enough, boy you got it rough. That's OK, it's just one of those days. Soon you'll see what 9 years of no emotion can do to me. You say I need to be more affectionate, well where's my benefit?
I have spent 9 years doing just that, all to be met with emotional smacks.
One day I'm beautiful the next I'm a monster, but yet I'm your only supporter.
Blinded by the fog in my head. I made my bed. And so soon you'll see just what you made me.


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