The room is spinning.
My head it bangs, I tried to dissolve it but here it is.
The pain, the suffering it doesn't desease, it grows.
It gnaws on my soul.

I see him, talking, yelling, crying.
The tears escape my eyes too.
Was I a fool?
For falling?
He says he's risking it all, I shake my head.
Loving me is a risk, didn't you know?
I want him.
I want him to talk to me.

I yelled back then cursed
I put anger in first
forced our love down, watched as it drowned, poured out my anger, fire falls.

In the end, I burnt it all
I burnt our love, the whole thing falls
tears fill my eyes, my heartbeat paused
"What have I done?"
Suicide it calls.






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