I know I'm not okay
I know I can be okay
I know I'll be okay
But you know
I don't wanna be okay

I don't wanna leave
The familiar embrace
Of sorrow and pain.
Change is much scarier
Than the usual aches.

At least with the everyday life
Of crying till I succumb myself to sleep
I have managed to make a living out of it.
Well sort of-ish..

I don't wanna step out of my comfort zone
Even if it's filled with nothing but thorns.

I am scared
That if I make myself be..
If I allow myself to feel joy...