you're trying so hard to control it
and i'm trying to not push you away
rough hands as our lips crush in hatred
somewhat close to love
.



thought we're doing it all for the right reasons
fighting every night of the seasons
heat rising but we keep crashing against each other
does it hurt you as much as it hurts me?
punches in my guts as I try not to fall for you
.
.


and we never say it out loud
but we're long past the threshold
long gone across it
towards the blossoms and the sweetness
do I deserve it?
I miss the punches...