you're trying so hard to control it
and i'm trying to not push you away
rough hands as our lips crush in hatred
somewhat close to love
.



thought we're doing it all for the right reasons
fighting every night of the seasons
heat rising but we keep crashing against each other
does it hurt you as much as it hurts me?
punches in my guts as I try not to fall for you
.
.


and we never say it out loud
but we're long past the threshold
long gone across it
towards the blossoms and the sweetness
do I deserve it?
I miss the punches whenever you hold me
I feel so unworthy
.
.



Living in a dark age
Living in a new age
And you show me how to see past the fires
Fires on the street and they lighten me up
All of the rage and all of the pain
You show me how to leave them behind
Even when I try to drown myself
You won't let me drown in the fish trunk
between my sorrow and my Bad luck
you find me in the dark
.





hate in our eyes but it's all a lie
my heroes keep crushing
but you keep me blushin
mhm
he keeps smirking cuz he knows
we're long past the threshold
mhm

this world doesn't need more heroes
it needs more kind souls
more thresholds successfully crossed
love found in lost memories
he keeps smiling like he knows
.



once upon a time
i kept myself starved and bitter
rolling with punches
and burning the world






© nijiro