Where am I?
I am so lost.

It is so hard to move forward.
Its like I have lost a part of me that I have known for 18 years.

I sought so much desire,love and compassion to distract me yet its not working.
My vicious sexual and physical attractions can't even melt this pain.

This trauma , this pain , this heartbreak is starting to make me numb, to the point I fear what I may do.
But who cares?