I've only just left and my heart yearns to be near you already. This is the real hard part. Though many may speak ill on what we have. They are simply ignorant to our connection. It's not for them to understand. I take your words to heart. Though the doubts are slowly slipping away, they're still there. Taking their time to dissipate. But I hold what you say dearly. You are the love I've been aching for. True and pure, among other things. You are my love. The fear I have of sharing you, I'm sorry to say, may never fully disappear. But I am sure that I am yours and you won't take for granted the heart I've so cautiously given to you. This is an honest leap of faith I'm taking. Given my past history with partners. Female and male. Can you really blame me for being anxious? Though even with all my doubts, all my fears, I've thrown caution to the wind and chose to free fall. Yes, I am aware of how corny that was, but I don't care. I know you still love me. I still don't see what you see, but maybe one day you'll let me in on that. Till then, I'll just keep telling you all the ways you make my heart do weird things. You've got me spellbound, and buzzing with anticipation. Just being near you excites me entirely. The effects you have on me are honestly hard to describe most times, but I try my best. Just the thought of you brings a smile to my face. I feel like a teenager who's just had their first kiss. I love that feeling. And it's crazy. I know I'm older, but you seem so much more mature than I. You make me feel safe enough to be my real self around you. I can cry to you and you hold me. I can be filled with rage and you calm me effortlessly. I can be hyper and childlike and you just eat that up. I can feel insecure and you give me encouragement. Half the time I have to ask myself, what is it that I do for you. I'm sure you'll tell me if I were to actually ask you. That aside, I hope you stay in my life. I already told you that I can't see my life without you in it now. Maybe I am a hopeless romantic or just simply naive and foolish. So be it. I'm trusting you with my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul. I came to you broken, and you've helped me to start rebuilding my foundation. I don't mean to pressure you, but please don't break what's left of me. There's not much of a foundation yet but it's all I've got. I can only hope I'll be strong enough to survive it if you decide I'm not what you want. I push that thought from my mind everytime it enters. Memories of the time we've spent together flood in and I'm elated. I love you so much. And this may be selfish, but I never want to lose you.

© Bleu Wolfe