Even after promising myself I won't be shedding tears anymore.

I cried for hours to not betray myself from reality anymore.

Even after promising myself I won't cause you melancholy.

Here I'm, with the new scars and abyss in my soul

Even after knowing that I don't belong to hope

I wished for it just to be hopeless again.

Even after losing everything, I still I lose myself in the emptiness.

I do belong somewhere, but not to the autumn but to the rain.

So I wish to disappear in drops in phases
© sadaf