Dear Ex,

In the shackles of your love, my life hangs...

I feel like a bird with paralyzed wings,

In the sea of the abyss, my soul floats in clang,

Like a fish denied water and left to wring...

It had been very hard to even breathe,

The air seems so poisonous to my useless being,

I move around like a ghost in a sheath,

Yet within, the aches wouldn't budge or set me free...

And I'm constantly reminded of the day we bid goodbye

The pain I still find so hard to hide,

For my heart was ravaged and left sore,

I'd never imagined losing a love so pure,

Maybe we did try hard to make things right,

But the truth is, our love was nearly never in sight,

I watched you leave as my world fell apart,

Ever since then, I haven't moved on for my heart still bears the spark,

You remained there on the steepest edges of my memory,

A love so strong I yearned to find again and feel,

So, I tried moving on or perhaps trying to start anew,

Yet, a part of me was stuck to you,

I tried a lot to find love, like the one I saw in you,

But I realized no one could be like you,

I strived for days and counted months as they soon became years,

And momentarily I was left with nothing, not even the constant fears,

The thrill of living became a nightmare,

For those were feelings that occurred only when you were there,

You taught me how to live and smile,

But your departure announced my death and I felt as though my heart's been snatched to a faraway land of several miles,

I was and am still a coward drained by love's ecstasy previously and love's cruelty now,

I feel so sorry for being unable to save the only thing that made me feel human and this I can't disavow,

My biggest regret is that I didn't endeavor to learn how to harness the winds in times of storm,

And face all obstacles like nothing ever happened so it wouldn't be hard to conform,

Maybe you still love or maybe not,

I know and still truly believe in you to the point of aught,


And I'll always cherish the memories we share and take that as my allot,

And try to live the remains of my days with no single blot,

Though I wish and will always wish I could go back to our start,

And find a way to mend our broken hearts.


Yours in love & pain,
From your ex-beau.
© hujjah