They say that the thing about being alive is to feel.Whereas sometimes it's quite overwhelming that it encages you—it binds you.Thereof,the most downing sensation I've ever felt is that you loved me just because I pretended to be someone else—that I can still pungently remember your last words of hatred.

I was made peculiarly that I feel so tender either by touch(Mirror-Touch Synaesthesia) or by simply looking into someone else(Empathy/Empath)
But despite of having this kind of gifts I failed to help myself from drowning,I failed to unstop myself from missing you day and night and I failed to have you as mine despite of loving you beyond my capacity that I almost die from this crumbling sensation that I may say agonizing.

Maybe I lied but that's because I'm afraid to loose ever single thing about you and you wholly—I'm afraid to remember the scenario where I found myself looking for love but ended up being diluted by anger and bitterness.I guess through all my experiences either you're different or not we are all capable of Loving—and for me to feel beyond what people can feel is bearable but to love and to be loved at the same time is I think the sensation that I know is impossible for me to obtain.

Despite of my gifts given by God there's only one thing I want to possess—the ability to go back at a certain time where I can still love you.

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