let me do some fun
before I made my way to heaven

when I know that I got cancer
i felt like my heart slit by a dagger
what was my fault
to deserve this kind of shat

let me do some pleasurable things
before I fly to god with my wings

i curse the god.....
why would you eager to taking me early
while I reached the age 21 nearly

let me do some hairstyle
before I get tonsure
let me play a little in mud
before I can't walk out of my bed

if I know my life will be short....

i would have enjoyed the life instead of working hard
i would have go to party
instead of going to meanigless temple
i would have drunk like other girls instead of being a teetotaller
i would have go to tour
instead of saving

i want live long long like others....

until my cheeks got shrunken
until my hair got grey
until my children got married
until I walk with a stick

i want to scream loudly to you god
that i don't want die, but
what could i do instead of crying and preparing for my farewell

if the reincarnation is true,
i would like enjoy in my next life
instead of caring about the meaningless future

before I die....i want to do two things

i want to told my mom that
how much I love her and
peacefully sleep on her lap
permanently......

would you allow me......
you cruel god.


© kaddy