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silence...
With the silence surrounding me,
I lay in bed curled under the blanket,
The darkness now doesn't scare me anymore,
It just gives peace and space for my tears to free,
I feel too weak but I don't want to cry,
There's seriously nothing but I sit hugging my knees until the cheeks are stained and dried,
I'm sorry for lying saying I'm fine
But I don't want to bother anyone,
Nor be a burden or to be surrounded by guilt,
I'm too scared to fail that I can't even try,
There's no reason left for me to have a real smile,
I wish I could control this and get a break for a while,
Everyone gets better and better than here's me who keeps on getting worse and worser,
I also want to try and work hard, and be active,
But the urge to be productive doesn't anymore exist,
I feel tired without doing anything at all,
I even hate all those texts and once enjoyed hours of calls
© Rink
I lay in bed curled under the blanket,
The darkness now doesn't scare me anymore,
It just gives peace and space for my tears to free,
I feel too weak but I don't want to cry,
There's seriously nothing but I sit hugging my knees until the cheeks are stained and dried,
I'm sorry for lying saying I'm fine
But I don't want to bother anyone,
Nor be a burden or to be surrounded by guilt,
I'm too scared to fail that I can't even try,
There's no reason left for me to have a real smile,
I wish I could control this and get a break for a while,
Everyone gets better and better than here's me who keeps on getting worse and worser,
I also want to try and work hard, and be active,
But the urge to be productive doesn't anymore exist,
I feel tired without doing anything at all,
I even hate all those texts and once enjoyed hours of calls
© Rink
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