i have been so Lonely that i choose other person feeling upon mine,
i have been a people pleaser who can't say a no until big happen,
i have been pointing mistakes in me when it's other person who did the crime,
i was gone through self worth issues so much that other people try to take it as a benefit of doubt ,
i was craving somone helping hand or a ear to listen because I was over thinking about my life Craps or want to over it in sometime,
i used to running towards people for Friendship even if they hurt my own emotions or feelings in return ,
i used and manipulated by some people who's presence has been by my side and its nothing less than a helping friend from my side ,
i thought kindness is all about saying a yes and welcome everyone with open arms until
i read ,i learnt , i teaches myself that nothing bad in staying kind for yourself first and saying no when you don't feel alright ,
nothing bad in it if you cancel some plans or meet up because you are the one who is not feeling right ,
through pain, through sorrows ,
through self doubts ,
through sleep less nights and lots of thinking ,
thanks to social media who opened my eyes,
i was the one for me when anyone leave my side ,
i was the one who came out stronger than ever before from any aspect of life,
i was the one who deserve more love more friendship, more kindness ,more understanding little more from everyone else,
i was the one for me who can walk through darkness to light ,
i was the one who is teaching other human how to treat me ,
so treat yourself little more than others and keep the faith within that you won't lost yourself finding someone else in this life,
don't get scare until god chooses to leave your side ..
© vyanjana