i felt the first crack in my heart
i dont know what's more painful
i knew this was coming
or that i wanted this to happen
but the pain is enormous...
way more than i could think

i felt a knife dig in my chest
it was slow and steady
made me sick to my stomach
and nostalgic to my mind

does it hurt? -Yes
is there any other option?- No
i want to scream and tell him
you are mine
& i can't see your arm around one's shoulder
i cant hear you talk about someone
while i am there waiting for you..
all of that i cant do
i cant even touch you
and thats the pain i cant take already
i hate the distance between us
i hate my life already

the moment i see you slipping away
my soul weeps yet smiles like nothing
its not easy...but i am trying
may god help me heal...
and may he find u the happiness...
even when we both know
its not with me
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© ripper