Its like gazing at a mirror.
See the fucking reflections of me in you.
The reflections you try so damn hard to keep hidden.
The same exact fucking images of me, your pathetic excuse for a mother, that you hate.
The same mother who can’t seem to get life right.
The same woman who fucking failed you.
If I could give you anything in this his forsaken world.
I’d give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes.
You are a sunlight of perfection.
I’m sorry I keep letting you down.
This isn’t what I wanted my lovie.
I have tried and tried to be the best mother I can be.
Shit, that’s the only thing that’s kept me alive for all these miserable fucking years.
It’s so sad that you can go on with your days without me in them.
It’s so sad that I prepared you for those days.
My beautiful baby love, I hope you can one day see the good in me.
I hope you can see passed your selfishness and see that I do this fucking thing called life for you.
I hope one day you can you can embrace that reflection that you see in the mirror.
Im sorry for not reaching your god damn expectations.
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