I could try to fight
but there's something in my eye
I must be going blind
but I think I've already lost my mind

it all started at grandma's house
we were sitting on the couch
and now I only know you as red
considering all the shit you had said
you're not telling me the truth
but it's fine cuz
I've got nothing left to lose

I lay back
I'm waiting
impatient
already, forsaken
a step forward
comes with warning
what could I do but ignore me
I met myself
down in the gutter
and I made her bleed
but swore I never touched her
She's crying
I'm angry
and I keep on running
protect me, control me
remind me all of the stories
give me, give me
every one of those feelings
fuck me and feed me
and then smoke me out
take me out
I haven't seen daylight...