I am not ok.
I can no longer lie and say I am fine.
I do not feel safe alone.
If I am alone, I will die.

I have told my family, I need time,
I told my therapist I don't need an ambulance...
But I know I do.

I doubt I will make it to the end of the week
I know that I should call an ambulance,
Or sign myself into a mental hospital.

But If I do...
Then I am already dead


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