i don’t want to write this poem
because i’m scared of feeling
feeling the feelings.
feelings of love.
feelings of guilt.
feelings of remorse.
feelings of anger.
feelings that i should have said this
or i should have said that.
feelings that i never should have listened to God.
feelings that you will die,
feelings that i will die.
feelings that ill never speak to you again.

i never wanted to lose you,
and i didn’t want to lose God too,
i didn’t want to lose anything,
it was all a lose lose,
a lose lose because i don’t feel the peace i expected when i chose the LORD...