at time I will be laughing
so loud and genuine
at once the thoughts start racing
so fast you can't intrude

In a place where images are clear yet unknown
random words so real yet can't recall
a mean voice telling me to end it
a frail voice telling me to hold on
this emptiness you can't fill it
driven by emotions I behave like a moron


late nights get the best of me
my bed tired from too much tossing
The fear within takes a hold on me
my pillow so used to the tears
late night bring the worse in me
the time when the knives in my body is on duty
the time when there's a light out on my emotions


During the day mood is blackout
trapped in my mind
caged in my emotions
You talk to me expecting an answer
You seek for a smile you won't get
my daily routine locked in a wardrobe
I can't find the keys
you want the hardworking girl right?
sorry you will only find the lazy one today
you want me to laugh like yesterday right?
I wish I could give you that but
It seems your request is timeout