I wonder if I'm chasing something that doesn't exist.
As I gather my thoughts and go about my day I realize you're the one I can't resist.
I wonder if I'm holding on to you from a place of fear.
There hasn't been a day I didn't wake up and yearn for you to be near.
I wonder if we reached our expiration date so my heart I have to learn to isolate.
You seem so disconnected like you can't relate but my feelings I need to descalate.
I don't want to look up one day and regret our journey because you made me feel like I was alone in love.
When from the moment I fell in love all I wanted was all your love, to be your love, to be who you love, who you give your love, and to give you all my love.
You turned me into someone whose connected to people but in this love game it feels like we're no longer equal.
I wake up with the hopes of creating something better because our journey helps us learn each other.
Like we have an epic love story that continues like a sequel.
Years later we'll look back and say now it's time for part 2 of this journey between me and you to be effortlessly.
Then I wonder if it's even worth it?
What's the purpose?
How do I get my heart and mind away from you?
You, the you who turned me into someone who believes in forever.
You turned me into someone who didn't want to give up this love fight, no quit just try until I get it right.
I went from feeling like you didn't want to learn how to live without me.
To feeling like I love someone whose already let me go.
I wish you would just let me know, I wish I knew how to get me back from you while I'm still in it.
That way once we finish I can just be completely finish.


© Shanice L Hairston
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