in a few hours I'd have aged by one year
i look around and everyone seems to be so happy for me
i don't want to disappoint them
i need to look like life has been kind to me
smile… smile… SMILE
crazy how some are perhaps too happy
i am left to wonder as to why
their exhilaration escapes me
as i stare at this precipice called life

i think i know what is haunting me driving me insane… sane… INSANE
it’s the nostalgia… the innocence lost
it hurts to look back and not go back the sudden realisation of a fast-approaching adulthood saps my courage
it bothers me so

or maybe it’s the imminent and immense feeling that death
always so distant now looms
closer… closer… CLOSER...