It is lonely where my spirit lies

A mustard seed of faith, just so my soul will not die.

Holding on to a damaged broken little girl inside.

Who hides behind the tears I have cried.

I give you and them the best of me.

Leaving nothing for myself, let my enemies have the rest of me.

Heart chained andband from pain it locked up.

Weary from endlessly searching in who or what holds the key.

Only to realize, self love I must recognize

To heal my heart meant loving me.

So sweet, loved the world, even influences evil to believe.

Things will change, he will make a way, yet myself I still could not see.

My confidence only comes from compliments.

You only see a mirage if the real me.

Bruised from insecurities.

So convinced I know my purpose, just to keep questioning out reality of what Earth is.

At times I'm willing to live in your dream, since nothing's ever as it seems.

Constant change, evolving, growing through the pain.

Has made me wanna give up, wishing it was physically.

Mainly emotional, No scars to prove healing.

Reopening wounds, leaving jagged cuts.

The way I feel leaves me to believe I'm insane.

Even accused the wicked of putting a curse on my name.

Abused by my very own thoughts, searching for belonging.

On a mission each day, just to feel ok.

Whatever it takes I will do, even if harmful.

Not realizing what all I could lose.

Just to numb my brain to supress the pain.

Washing away memories, staying in my own lane.

Seeming so outgoing, beautiful and full of life.

Those qualities in me I also despise.

To know love, I have nothing left in me to sacrifice.

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