I'm not a poet
Not so great with words.
But these words they suffocate
my heart, it hurts.
Shadows of my past haunting,
My head, it's going to burst.

I'll tell you my story,
A girl so shy and lonely.
She loved to run and climb,
For a girl, not so girly.
But elders tried to mold,
They were being very nosy.

Momma said let's go shopping,
Decorate your hair, wear a dress.
Nana said get a man,
Throw your dreams and don't stress.
Controlled like puppet for my gender,
I hated men, I confess.

Not all boys are evil, I know
Some are good friends of mine.
But I don't trust many,
They mock me since I was nine.
Hate the control and restrain,
For me, relationships aren't fine.

Those elders shoved to my ears,
That I am pretty trophy to be pampered.
I fight, and kick, and bite,
Sick of being restrained.
Those piercing judgment screeches,
Gives me endless nights of migrain.

These cursed hormones they kicked,
These boys started to look pretty.
But when I offer my heart,
Lost a part of my dignity.
It feels so good,
Yet it feels like agony.

It started with the fairies of lines,
My sweetheart, I called Kai.
A mirage boy, with gentle voice,
His eyes like the morning sky.
No one could see him,
But I know he's nearby.

A cowboy with crooked nose,
A pretty man with ebony hair.
A funny-faced gentleman,
Thereafter, the best one's there.
A sassy vampire,
I can't help to stare.

Along the journey,
It isn't all fluff.
My filthy mind and twisted head,
I've done unspeakable stuff.
Those I called 'dear',
I've treated them rough.

Thinking of fangirls,
You see those squeaky teens.
Who wants Justin's baby,
When they're thirteen.
It's different in my case,
It's not how it's been.

Now a new guy's here,
John is his name.
A talented humble one,
despite of his fame.
But this new round,
Like the old days, they're the same.

I don't treat my pets with care,
rather I toss them around.
I tied them to a chair,
When they cried I felt proud.
The begging, them whimpering,
What a...