you can tell me to look at the positive but that's only going to allow people to keep repeating the negative acts they do towards me if I don't f*** them up for it vice versa you know I'm pretty tired of dying inside and quite frankly being positive ain't going to help information has been misconstrued people are speaking way above my level without allowing me to even know that to the point where I can't understand and it's confusing me and I'm going through something they call hell in the f****** stupid man-made Bible and to top it off my friend is no longer alive so this is kind of f****** s***** too gastrous gastrous whatever the f*** you want to say anyways City wars amnesty I mean were you ever really genuine that's what I need to know that's the answer and are you really trying...