I looked at my mother's gown today and thought,
'What a beautiful skirt this could be'
If only it wasn't afraid of change.

I looked at the sky the other day and thought,
'What a beautiful painting this could be'
If only it weren't afraid of change.

I used to look at this one person
And I've been thinking,
'What a beautiful soulmate he could've been'
If only he loved me enough to want to change for me.

The colours in this sky, the plaster in my walls
They've seen me think about him millions of times,
Within the halls, within the shadows of where she grows
I've cried about a million times, like a withering rose
Maybe more than stars in the galaxy
Or grains of breath in the sky
Should I stop saying hello if it only leads to goodbye?

Oh universe, you birthed me to a man incapable of care, one who only lies
And two more who didn't want to give what I gave, they taped stitches on my eyes

Am I really that unloveable to you?
I lose myself in so many shades of blue
It's stinging in my mind and it's burning on my thighs
Every man I trust makes me lose my f***king mind

Every single time, I thought
'Here's a new beginning'
Next thing I know, it's a new heartbreak song I'm singing
Wait wait no, don't be pessimistic
Maybe third time's the charm
Your fears are kind of thinning
This one's a new beginning

But everywhere I turn, I see the fragments of me there
Everywhere I look, fearful eyes and bushy hair.
I’ll show them hope but look they’re all still there
With those cups of desperation that they clink into the air.
"Cheers," they say, let's have some happy spirit
But my lungs are itching, I just don't see what's missing
I'm getting deja vú today
No shh this time he'll mean what he'll say
This time he won't lie to your face
This time he'll be honest and have grace

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