Caught up in this tangled Web of despair,
Never daring to hope, never daring to dare,
looking back at my life, and wondering, why?
How do I go on, when my life's been a lie.
The fog engulfs my body, sends my mind into a daze,
Semi-conscious through it all now, as the nights turn into days,
When did I start to lose control?
When did I lose my grip?
Has reality starter to falter?
Sending my mind onto this trip,
The hours turn to days, and the days soon turn to weeks,
For time it has no meaning, when it's solace your heart seeks,
Thoughts wander round inside my head, as caught in a perpetual haze,
immobilizing fatigue takes over, my mind in a constant daze,
The chains are way too heavy, and its grip is just too tight,
My mind, I fear, defeated, have I lost the will to fight?
It waits round every corner, playing games inside my head,
It's numbness spreading through me, until my heart turns into lead.
The panics all around me, waiting for the chance,
To seep into my body, turn my thoughts into a trance,
This fortress I've erected, to keep my demons out,
It's started to engulf me, and no one hears me shout,
I don't know how to stop it, don't have anywhere I can turn,
It dominates all powerful, it's strength I start to yearn,
It brightens up the dullest day, and it makes my laughter light,
But all the things that were important, are now fading from my sight.


© cloudy blue