I remember when
My life seemed to matter
It was the only thing that
I was ever really after
I wanted to be important
If only it was to one person
I guess my mind was
Nothing BUT disproportioned
I remember when
I was out here on my own
And I remember when
The first time when I was all alone
I remember how
I'll never forget that feeling
I remember often times
It was far from being appealing
I remember
It only being me in the dead of the night
There was nothing else around
Not a living soul in sight
I remember now
The 'scared' feeling I had inside
But matter where I tried to run
There was no where that I could hide
I remember
That nothing I could say or do
Could change the fact of the reality
Or could even be misconstrued
I remember how
I felt even society threw me away
So if society or my Mama didn't even want me
Then maybe I was never really that important anyway
I always remember
That the harsh truth is as it be
The only person who gonna look out here for me
IS ME
But I do remember when
My life did seem to matter
Back then, it was the only thing that
I was ever REALLY after


© De Ona Marie Charamut