I want to feel your fingers
while they linger on my neck
I want to feel the type of love
that chases away my regrets
I want to tell you all my secrets
bare my heart and just bleed
until you get kind of tired
and you ask me to leave
I’ll be
that nice guy you hold onto instead
lead me on with promises
while playing pretend
I’ll be your
go for
get this
rub your back
and fetch snacks
won’t get mad
when you say you’re too tired
you just need to relax
I’ll hold back
bite my tongue
tell you I’m fine
as self loathing
and depression
start to eat up my spine
ware me down
I’m so worn down
I just want

i don’t know

I want to feel sexy
like I’m wanted
not just needed around
it’s nice to be thought of
but I’m still missing out
but I’m just a nice guy
I’ll say I’m fine
go in the other room
and relieve myself alone….
it okay
I’m fine
I’m used to it
just reminds me of home
kind of reminds me of my last relationship
or whatever you want to call this
I don’t really give a shit
I’m not really having fun with it
anymore.
I thought I was a slut
turns out I’m a whore.
find me in the bathroom behind locked doors
with my headphones one
so I don’t disturb your sleep
while your dreaming of the guy
you wish I could be.

I’m miserable without you
I’m bitter on my own
I’m alone when I’m around you
and I just want to bone

fuck!

I’m mean like what’s the point in finding love
when love is held like a reward for good behavior
thanks for getting food I love you
don’t touch me I’m tired

don’t touch me I’m tired

just once in my life
I want to respond this way
carry on like sex is a game
come onto me so I can turn you away
go fuck yourself
and be quiet about it.

but nice guys finish last

not to expect anything too fast
I’m gonna die alone so I’ll take what I can get
despite my effort
it’s all just regrets.

I’ll probably delete this in the morning


© JubilantDragon