You are gone because of my hands that I had raised to you. I regret that everyday. I miss you so much that I can feel it in my body. This physical ache. I still love you and these regrets will never go away. You appear to me in my dreams where we live happily, but then I wake and that happiness is gone. My darkness took me over. My demons got loose. I still adore you, but you are gone and your love for me is not the same. How could it be? You were abused. I will forever be sorry because I had you and lost...