You are gone because of my hands that I had raised to you. I regret that everyday. I miss you so much that I can feel it in my body. This physical ache. I still love you and these regrets will never go away. You appear to me in my dreams where we live happily, but then I wake and that happiness is gone. My darkness took me over. My demons got loose. I still adore you, but you are gone and your love for me is not the same. How could it be? You were abused. I will forever be sorry because I had you and lost you. You were the one that got away. The one who understood my soul. I will forever feel lost without you and I am forever in this dark hole. Why did I do these terrible things to you? The one who brought me flowers and gifts? When I first met you I fell hard instantly. Your eyes told me a story. Your presence was so beautiful. Your presence was like poetry. Oh how I yearned for your touch. I miss you everyday and these tears fill my eyes. Thoughts fill my head of what might've been. My soul feels incomplete. When you left it felt like I was dying inside, but I put on that good front. I had to act tough because honestly I just wanted to lay down and cease to exist. I wasn't alone yes that is true, but my heart & my love still belong only to you.
© Brandi Leigh