I am sorry if this ever hurt you
But you made me hate myself,
Hate the way I am.

Made me have unwavering
distrust towards men
And those also who identify
themselves as one of them.

Made me more understanding
to the fairer gender
Cause I saw how you treat
my sisters and mother

Since young you are
the only man in my life
That's been around me.
And I know it's more than enough.

I'm sorry,
But I wouldn't want
another one like you in my life.
I wouldn't want my husband to be like you,
For the good of me and my children.

But also because of you
I never wanna settle
Cause it made me feel afraid;

What if in parenting.. I turned out like you?

After all an apple never fall far from the tree.

If marriage is just like you and mom.
Then I don't want it.

I would feel the crawls and chills
whenever I was just around men
even though they can now be
considered as my friend.

I wouldn't be close to a guy
if they are not gay.
I wouldn't want to touch even a skin
on their fingertips if they are not a girl.

Dear father of mine,
Because of you,
You made me more cautious,
Some may call it trust issues.
Made me meek and quiet,
While others call it unconfident.

Dear father of mine,
I'm sorry if this hurt you,
but in my next life,
I hope we don't meet again.

Love,
from your 'ungrateful' Daughter.

© Bashful