Spirituality And Me❤️

I'm curious to know about Cosmos
Universe I see at dawn, midnight
On starry nights, dusk is distinct...

The radium lights in the form of an image
Float around me, taps on my shoulder
This happens as and when I get deeply involved in prayers

Something is strange in spirits or souls
I can't see them with open eyes
But something happens in prayers
I go into a deep sleep and see the unknowns

A Goddess in Green with Her third eye open
She walks with a skull in Her hand
Sometimes She floats above the ground
Seeing Her my body trembles
Hands go in yogic postures.
I fall on the floor and find it difficult to raise myself...

Sometimes I find myself in the temple of the Goddess
She is in Yogini form, some hill is where she lives
Wearing a white saree, she looks divine
Suddenly Her face changes color She is infinitely blue
I can see Her eyes spark, She stands there
The skulls speak, weird languages
I dont know what, something happens to me
I feel drained out, heavy in my head...

I don't know why, so many black images I see
I get scared to close my eyes, night is live with magic
I still feel something is wrong in me
I hear the sound of the chorus when I pray
The rhythm of the drums, echo when I sing hymns
I turn around but there's no one playing music

I live the events before they happen
I then all in my visions
Every day it's a challenge
I want to run away from this world
Unexplained is my journey
The days cycles of moon affect me
I'm thirsty for cosmic aura I feel weak

I know someone is with me always
Protecting me, saving my character
When my mind is not in my control
I do cry alone, want to just vanish...
On those days I see the frequency
Of the visits of Divine Maa high
I see my Supreme frequently
I see my love everywhere...

But tell my destiny
How many prayers are left?
I can increase my prayer time I feel drained
Without prayers, I am just breathing
The heaviness of dark world is more on my sensitive days...
I wait with tears in my eyes, dont know
What will be next? Will I cross this phase of life ?
Why are those spirits chasing me?

Is this the link between the Supreme and my love?
Am going to face more of these types?
I was curious to know the position of my soul
I asked this question to myself
One day in prayers I experienced this
Right in the center of my ribs, a small door opened
Some hand came, place a diya in it...
From that day till now, I feel my soul
In core of my heart, I pulsate

One day as I was sitting thinking of my man
I saw myself admits the unknown lands
Underneath the soil, there's a dynasty I found him there waiting...
Tears flowed, I got jerked...
I walked into the sacred zone and started praying
My body was heavy, my vision was blurred
I thought I will be dead, as I got my feet stiff, hands crippled
I thought of calling him before I could leave this world
But could move myself, sat there living motionless...
The bright light in front of my eyes increased
My eyes got shut, as though forced by some power
I hear the sound of metal chains falling on the floor
For some time I struggled to breathe, I felt there is no oxygen in the room
After a few minutes, I got a tap on my thigh
I saw a green big praying mantis falling out
I didn't know from where it came...
Unexplained is my spiritual life...

In the quest to meet the Supreme
I think I have to cross and travel in weird worlds
All the way, I feel I'm not alone
Rescue comes from the Supreme
He knows my emotions well
Yet He comes to save me
Am I going through the churning of my soul
Am I getting trained to be a warrior
Or Am I in the zone of Medium...

Sometimes I feel, I can wait
But when I feel too helpless
I feel death is best to leave this world
Meet the Supreme live with Him...

But I have seen myself waiting
On the gates of His abode
I saw the Divine Maa with tears in Her eyes
All their eyes spoke and showed me
The time I spent in prayers
My feeds for his soul
My wars and the arguments with Supreme ...

I don't know what waits for me
What I know is Supreme is watching me...
Every day is counting on prayers
I feel hallow from inside the day I miss him in my subconscious
I see hope in the eyes of my love
I live trusting the Supreme.




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