My ego is burning and causing me pain
Chaos in my head bound to drive me insane
Come save me from this place
I've wondered so far
Who the fuck am I anymore
I look over my shoulder
My heart beats fast
My blood starts to boil
A white hot flash
How do I make it stop
My thoughts just spiral
Out of control
Maybe it's denial
Maybe I'm a lost cause
Maybe im depressed
Maybe I'm a piece of shit
Just put me on some meds
I just feel so insecure
And nothing matters anymore
I push everyone away I love
I'm so easy to ignore
My words come out before I think
Voices take over and I start to sink
No one notices
I just look so dumb
Maybe one day I'll just feel numb
It's hard to care about yourself
When no one else really does
My feelings get put on a shelf
While people draw their guns
Taking shots from every side
I'm never good enough it seems
The desicions I make in my mind
Just lower my self esteem
I water myself down
To accommodate to others
No one's ever proud
Why do I even bother
My words aren't empty
I mean what I say
To put it quite simply
I can't go another day
Apologizing for how I think
Or how I feel inside
I feel like I'm on the brink
And I don't care if I die
I'm having visions of taking
This bandana round my throat
And fucking squeezing it
Until I suffocate or I choke
There's no hope
My chest is fucking empty inside
I sit alone and I cry
I don't know why I try
There's nothing left to revive
My souls been gone a long time
And I don't think I can survive
Another miserable night
Locked in my mind.





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