I don't know
The moon is so beautiful
and so as the stars
but why they have to appear
so sad in my eyes?

I thought it was me
who did nothing wrong
that's why the life;
giving me a hard time
continue fucking me

I believed in what they said
Their words who appeared
so true on my head
I feel so flattered
but not 'til they got busted

All along, I thought it was real
That I already know myself
But no I don't;
Because they fed me with lies
Thinking that it won't make me cry

Now, I am bleeding
They stabbed me at my back
I don't know what to feel
My heart aches
My eyes sting

I can't breathe
In this world that's full of lies
I am choosing to stop
Stop mid-tracks
I'm tired and so as well as my heart

I was happy
I was smiling
I was living free
Not until they woke me up
from this cruel reality

Too sad to smile
Too hurt to cry
Too fucked-up to think
Too numb to feel a thing

I chose to live
and let myself breathe
But now they prove me wrong
I am deciding to quit

You made me believe
That there was a rainbow
right after the sorrow
And you won't ever let me feel alone

You made me believe
That roses wouldn't get dry
because you're taking care of them
Not letting 'em to die

You made me believe
That it would be all worth it
But why?
why the fuck it turned out like this?

You made me believe
That I could still smile
Even I'm in cage of pain
So near to die

You made me believe
In your poetic rhymes
That I almost run out of counts
which one is a truth and the lies

You made me believe
That I'm me, this was me
This is my world
This is what I deserve

You made me
but cliché that you are now
breaking me
Turning me into pieces
Destroyed; shattered

I thought it was me
That this was the reality
We shared the same blood
I belonged to this family

But no, you lied
You kept secrets with me
now, I cried
I wanna know, I wanna ask,
"Who am I? Where did you get me?"


© j. wyonna