Do I need you?
No
Do I want you?
No

But like a virus I'm stuck with you.
I can't even watch a fucking TV show anymore without something or someone somewhere reminding me of you

Then my heart starts racing
My hands start shaking
My thoughts start crumbling
I forget what I was even doing

Then my breathing gets heavy
I don't want this
I don't need this
But like a virus you've infected me with poison toxins

I think I'd rather drink the small vial of poison and just get it over with
I drink myself to sleep every night and the majority of the time I don't even remember what I do that night

I work my ass off every single day just to keep my mind occupied till I can hit the bottle
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