It's hard to breathe
when the walls of your chest are closing in on you
When each breath you draw summons excruciating pain.
Even when the tear ducts are clogged
The tears are locked in your throat burning.
This pain is flammable in oxygen.
It's hard to feel when you're suffocating
And it's hard to live when dying is just one decision away.
Desperation to feel whole leads to an unfilled hole
Regagitating pain, agony and sorrow
Misery is a bed I wake up to everyday
Life is a faceless monster i have to face each day
When i try to find a away to fight this monster
I end up wearing a smile to mask this pain
I ask
What did i do to deserve this?
Pain is more than just a prick on the finger
This pain is more than just a burn of boiling water
This pain is my soul burning me from within
This pain is like my skin
I cannot escape but i can only hide from for a while
This pain is a shadow i cannot outrun.
It's hard to live when breathing is like dying
I gave this body life
Even when my soul was not living
My heart was screaming for help
Yet i continued to feed this mouth
That was speaking death to my life
Brushed the tongue that spet venom to my soul
The teeth that grinded when i was sad,
Mad, when my life didn't make sense
I can't believe i cared more of the smile
That was slowly burying my heart in sorrow
Cuffing my soul in misery
I can't believe i let this grave live
But when nature called i couldn't resist
Who could deny the laws of biology?
Breathing is a law of biology that give life to a body
That is forcing its away in this world.
I die each day, every day a part of me cease to live
I will continue to die until my lungs draw the last breath
Because breathing is another law of biology i can't deny.

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