felt the second crack in my heart
like there is just few more to go
then there will be only Pieces of my heart
enough to turn it into art
he told me he needs to get married soon
the thought of losing him
is like getting stuck in a elevator
and suffocating to death

i dont know how to respond
what to say,whom to tell
that feelings for him breaks me
not having him cracks me
its almost like my body knows to work
but doesn't know how to feel happy
and being just that forever
might be my only option...
losing him is my own expiration...

what if we never get to meet
what if i lose him without hugging him?
what if i never get to touch him?
what if this ends before i could feel him?
if i let it end before i could feel his presence
that will be my biggest regret

loving him was accidental
losing him is deliberate
keeping him would be unfair
he belongs to someone else
but my heart never yearned like this...
nd yet again i am unable to fufill it.
it sucks to be me
it sucks to be broken
i just want him all good nd fine..
i will live my life alone as it was destined.




© ripper