Down on one knee I grind my teeth in frustration at the very thought of losing you,
filling my now empty heart with all the uncertainty one should ever have to endure.
Wandering about as if I had nowhere to go and often times nothing to do,
feeling as if time was now laughing at me making it hard to know which was more realistic...
The nightmare I now find myself living in or the life I had once had with you.
Having nowhere else to turn leaving me completely lost and unsure of what I should do,
I can't help but to be mad at God and so the trust I once had in the church has all but evaporated and I had felt like I was totally done with living this lonely life until I had heard a voice say,
"The beautiful thing about the human heart is,
The people that we loved so very much will always continue to live on as long as you allow them too.
They are in the very heart that reside inside each and every one of you..."
I see now that this was The Lord's way of allowing the loving memory I have for you to always be with me,
for this I am grateful because I could have only gone on living knowing my heart will always be right where it had longed to be,
I will miss you for always and Please know that no matter where you are or what you must be going through...
My heart will always be yours and I'm still so madly in love with you.
Love Me ...