I might have led it and coldly took it away
but revive your hope and seek for it again
I might have smiled like its for a good ending
but mark me as the past and look for a new one.

I knew what you needed, but I flamed it
I saw it in your eyes, yearning to be a forever seal
I heard it in your voice, sweetening in allure
I saw it in your actions, flexible in comforting

I am ashamed and remorseful that I set the fire
I think about it most days and all nights
I write about it and reference it in songs I hear
Now I'm cuddled in the cold.

"I feel bad" just like you said when I saw you smoke.

I love you still, even though I knew what you needed and didn't put ego on the sidelines.

My mistake, my loss, my memories.

🥀
© Kagiso Mokokosi