try as hard as you can
but in truth you can’t
change who I am
it’s been too long you see
and it’s destroying me
and my self esteem
I dream of a better life
but don’t get sleep at night
I think I lost my mind
but I’m o

k I don’t fit in
I’m feeling lost again
uncomfortable in my skin
it’s alright
as I start to break down
I scream without a sound
and hold it all inside
so I don’t
hurt you some more
I’m closing off that door
and jumping out
the window

I don’t think I am meant to be
I’m just meant to leave
it’s all just killing me
and I hope

everything is fine
I’ve slowly lost my mind
somewhere down the line
and I know

I’m not the best there is
I’m just another mess
and I have failed the test
I’m so low

everything feels wrong
I’ve been here too long
to do things right this time
I’ll never be alright
and it shows

© JubilantDragon