Days with him were awesome and fun, not to mention the few things I learnt from him and this made me even think that's what I deserved, I've been proud before of my choices but not like I was at that moment.
Though I still had the fear in me of fully accepting that he had become part of my life, I couldn't control this no more and thought that was for the best. We were just fine, I having lost those people close to me not that they wronged me but I have a tendency of not entertaining anyone while I'm in love it's always about me and my partner.
You know happiness is short lived coz some how there's always something to ruin every best moment.
Have you ever been used to someone, everything revolves about you and him, most free moments spent was with him, thinking of him? That's what literally happened to me, I wanted to have the best of out of the moment, out of the moment bearing in mind he would leave soon to his place of work- wanting to have memories enough to keep me warm and close when he was gone.
It all dawned that bad day and silence struck between us reason not known to me but him,
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MOMENTS OF SILENCE.
Day one of silence drove me insane, trying to sleep but I couldn't, preventing tears from falling, tears that were soo bitter and I couldn't hold back anymore.
Day two tried consolation from music but none worked my way, tried getting in touch with him and ask what happened but only for him to read my texts and Lea e them unanswered. This even hurt me the most and breaking the remaining hope I had. All I hoped for at the moment was that one text or call from him but......
At this moment, I started cursing days I met him, moments we shared, but this was just one person in me speaking. We all have two speaking voices in us that's the heart and mind and this time my mind was speaking.
We went days more days, no call, no texts and all I could say- I wish I knew this was another short lived moment.
I'm nagging while I focus on someone and this time, decided trying my luck, called him questioning him about the sudden change and this time he answered " I'm just going through a dark moment, once it's done, I'll let you know." his answer was short and precise. I never gave room for positive thoughts and my next worry was,
Who am I to him?
I'm I such a destruction he has to put me aside to sort his issues?
If he finds me one, why then have me around him?
Previously, he had said that he would love me not attending his matches saying " the reason I chose a girl away from the playing world, is the fields have a lot and I would prefer her watching only the games that really meant a lot to me." this now matched with his sudden change.
Is he hiding anything from me?
Why can't he come out clean and ill be fine? I thought.
Not mention me not watch him play really broke my heart, yes I watched him play once, it was fun and same time bitter having known there are people hating on him.
I had no...